5 Minutes

In short form. Friday instead of the pool Girl Clean and I hit the library for books and DVD's. She was feeling kind of warmish so I didn't think the pool would be a good thing. After the library we hit up the pet store and Marshall's. Dinner Friday night was with my parents.

Saturday I took Girl Clean to paint pottery with my mom and her friends and then they took us to lunch afterwards.

Sunday morning I had to do a long run. I ran 7 miles. I read about the girls running these super long runs and gearing up for marathons and this is so not me.

I have no desire to ever run more then a 1/2 marathon. At this point that's not even on my future race list for anything on the coming calendar. I am preparing for a 15K, which is 9ish miles.

I had to figure out 7 miles before I could run them. There are no really great places to run a longer distance where I live now. At my condo, I could easily run a loop that was 7, 9, 11, 13 miles. I miss it.

I didn't love my run Sunday, it hurt. I've started taking glucosimine. I'm trying to remember to do my stretches and all the stuff I'm supposed to do.

Sunday after my run we ran errands then I had Girl Clean home at 5.

Yesterday Jack and I went up to visit Bean and Jelly. My parents came up and we enjoyed time together. It was the first time since Grandmommy's funeral that the 5 of us had been together.

I'm in a very very weird place right now. While overall the weekend was good, I'm struggling with the conundrum of when am I wrong, when is a situation something that I should apologize for, or is it as ridiculous as I view it to be. I didn't stay home on Thursday night I took Jack and my friend Nicole let me stay at her condo.

I don't want to be insensitive. I don't want to give the impression that I am always right. I don't want to negate feelings. I also don't want to be controlled or manipulated. In all honesty I feel lost. I have my meeting tonight. I have my first meeting with my sponsor tomorrow to start on my step work. So I move forward. One day at a time.