I received an apology last night. A good one too, that was sincere and effective.
Sometimes I have a hard time figuring out if I'm right, or if I'm the one who might need to make some changes too.
This particular situation, was a record on repeat, yet there were other elements thrown into it.
I have some things I need to work on. But mostly I just needed to point out all that I have done, and why I handle things the way that I do.
I will take ownership when it's my responsibility. I will admit when I'm wrong. I will also not back down when I know that I need to hold my ground.
I had my meeting last night. The topic, personal responsibility. I think for a long time I looked for others to make me happy, to fill a hole. This is not realistic. I'm not sure where this idea came from, and I'm certainly going to make sure that Girl Clean realizes that she is responsible for her own happiness.
I have to clean the office tonight. Then I need to go to the gym. I probably won't feel like it but I will go anyways. I almost left my cleaning bucket at home because I forgot to set it by the door. Fortunately I didn't get further then the drivers seat before I remembered this detail.
Tomorrow after work I will pick up Girl Clean and she will hang out with us this weekend. I'm hoping the weather on Friday cooperates and she and I can go to the pool.
I'm thankful that the statement this too shall pass has proved true yet again. Happy Wednesday!!
Wednesday, August 29, 2012
Tuesday, August 28, 2012
Tuesday
Yesterday I mentioned I wasn't very happy with Mr. Clean. Today, I'm still not.
Nothing like going back and forth and back and forth. To his credit, he's more willing to listen then I am. To my credit, I've reigned myself in to a degree (or 2) from where I was yesterday.
I refuse to not make time for friends and family, end of story. I also refuse to spend the rest of my life fighting over it.
This too shall pass.
I looked back over the summer weekend updates, I'm glad that I was able to have so many fun memories with Girl Clean. I'm also glad I recorded all of it. It helps me win my argument.
In other news. The DNC is coming to Charlotte. It's not here yet, and I'm already ready for it to be over.
The president is supposedly staying less then 5 miles from my office, oh joy. That's going to be a headache traffic wise!!!
OK positives, I had a good workout last night.
I started taking glucosimine for my joints. This is supposed to help my knees. I have been doing my exercises to strengthen my knees. Hopefully all this helps.
I have purchased the cutest little green jacket for Girl Clean and it was less then $3, I love Goodwill!!!
I had a fun time at the shower Sunday. I am excited about helping in Little Church. I have choices and I don't have to accept controlling behavior, and I won't.
Life is a journey, and I am thankful that I'm not where I was and not where I'm going. Happy Tuesday!
Nothing like going back and forth and back and forth. To his credit, he's more willing to listen then I am. To my credit, I've reigned myself in to a degree (or 2) from where I was yesterday.
I refuse to not make time for friends and family, end of story. I also refuse to spend the rest of my life fighting over it.
This too shall pass.
I looked back over the summer weekend updates, I'm glad that I was able to have so many fun memories with Girl Clean. I'm also glad I recorded all of it. It helps me win my argument.
In other news. The DNC is coming to Charlotte. It's not here yet, and I'm already ready for it to be over.
The president is supposedly staying less then 5 miles from my office, oh joy. That's going to be a headache traffic wise!!!
OK positives, I had a good workout last night.
I started taking glucosimine for my joints. This is supposed to help my knees. I have been doing my exercises to strengthen my knees. Hopefully all this helps.
I have purchased the cutest little green jacket for Girl Clean and it was less then $3, I love Goodwill!!!
I had a fun time at the shower Sunday. I am excited about helping in Little Church. I have choices and I don't have to accept controlling behavior, and I won't.
Life is a journey, and I am thankful that I'm not where I was and not where I'm going. Happy Tuesday!
Monday, August 27, 2012
5 Minutes
I'm super not happy with Mr. Clean at this moment. I'm doing my best to get over it. I know that I need to work on my attitude, I'll get there, maybe.
Friday night I picked up Girl Clean and we drove home. She stayed with her Dad while I took Jack for a walk. Saturday morning I had to be up early.
I ran 6 miles, started at 6. OH MY GOODNESS the weather was GORGEOUS!!!! It was SO perfect!!!! 59 degrees starting off. It was heavenly!!!
After my run I had to shower and change to leave for the car shop. My front brakes needed to be replaced, not the back. So after the oil change and new brakes I headed home. The check engine light is for my thermostat something or other it can wait so I'm not going to have that done just yet.
Saturday at 1 we were at my inlaws for lunch. I got to pick the menu and it was yummy!!! Chicken, and veggies followed by a birthday cookie!
Saturday evening I took Girl Clean to church and Mr. Clean stayed home and rested.
Sunday I was supposed to see Tiffany but she had to rain check. I had a shower for one of the girls I used to babysit for. I love showers like that, I got to see all kinds of fun people and catch up.
I left the shower, ran by the house to let Jack out and then headed to church. I'm volunteering in little church and they had training from 4-6 last night. They are rolling out a new format and I'm excited to be a part of it!
I booked my plane ticket for Florida on Friday. SO EXCITED!!!!! I can hardly wait to see Patrice and meet baby L!!!!
My friend Nicole and I were talking about motivation. I am running and working out. I need to eat better. I am simply not motivated. I am, I mean I'll complain all day long. I'm trying to not say anything because I know that unless I'm going to do something about it I need to keep my mouth shut.
I need to take deep breaths. INNNNN ANNNDDDD OUTTTTTT.
My tip for the day, don't get engaged after dating for 4 weeks and if you do make it a really long engagement!
Friday night I picked up Girl Clean and we drove home. She stayed with her Dad while I took Jack for a walk. Saturday morning I had to be up early.
I ran 6 miles, started at 6. OH MY GOODNESS the weather was GORGEOUS!!!! It was SO perfect!!!! 59 degrees starting off. It was heavenly!!!
After my run I had to shower and change to leave for the car shop. My front brakes needed to be replaced, not the back. So after the oil change and new brakes I headed home. The check engine light is for my thermostat something or other it can wait so I'm not going to have that done just yet.
Saturday at 1 we were at my inlaws for lunch. I got to pick the menu and it was yummy!!! Chicken, and veggies followed by a birthday cookie!
Saturday evening I took Girl Clean to church and Mr. Clean stayed home and rested.
Sunday I was supposed to see Tiffany but she had to rain check. I had a shower for one of the girls I used to babysit for. I love showers like that, I got to see all kinds of fun people and catch up.
I left the shower, ran by the house to let Jack out and then headed to church. I'm volunteering in little church and they had training from 4-6 last night. They are rolling out a new format and I'm excited to be a part of it!
I booked my plane ticket for Florida on Friday. SO EXCITED!!!!! I can hardly wait to see Patrice and meet baby L!!!!
My friend Nicole and I were talking about motivation. I am running and working out. I need to eat better. I am simply not motivated. I am, I mean I'll complain all day long. I'm trying to not say anything because I know that unless I'm going to do something about it I need to keep my mouth shut.
I need to take deep breaths. INNNNN ANNNDDDD OUTTTTTT.
My tip for the day, don't get engaged after dating for 4 weeks and if you do make it a really long engagement!
Thursday, August 23, 2012
tears, celebrations, and life in general
I mentioned last week I was crying over dumb stuff. I was. I think tears are sometimes legitimate. Like when your friend's daughter starts standing up on her own, and your friend thought it might never happen, totally acceptable to tear up, even to have tears fall.
Dumb tears, reading about the panther who wrote the letter in the Charlotte paper about how we're going to win the Superbowl. Not that it's not a fantastic gesture, but tears are not acceptable.
This is all my opinion and since it's me, I'm entitled to this. For years I went without crying over stuff. I was able to stuff all my emotions and it wasn't healthy but that's where I was.
Sometimes tears are necessary.
It has hit me at odd moments that my Grandmommy is no longer here. I haven't deleted her number out of my phone. I found a valentine's card from here yesterday. I am blessed that she was such a part of my life for so long!!
Yesterday I left work to go to the dentist. The tooth that had all the issues has been hanging out ever since. It now has a crack and we're going to maybe try to see if a temporary crown will be covered by insurance and see if that helps. Now I'm totally freaked about chewing on that side, because what if I crack it.
My check engine light came on on my way home from Boone Tuesday. I have to go today and have them read whatever it is. Then I'll have to go back on Saturday morning to have them fix whatever it is. Please don't let this be terribly expensive!!!
My birthday present from Mr. Clean is new back brakes. I'll be having that done on Saturday along with an oil change. I hate dealing with car stuff. Spending money on real life grown up stuff is such a drag!!!
I need to register for my 10K, the price goes up after tomorrow.
I love my husband I truly do. I know that I married the right man for me. Every relationship is different and truly can't be compared. I remind myself of this because while I get the sweet stuff I also put up with not so lovely stuff.
He did give me a visa gift card that he received, well 2 actually. One to use for me, one to use to buy clothes for Girl Clean. I scored a pair of Crazy 8 jeans, 3 Children's place tops, 1 jacket and an Old Navy dress for $33 at the consignment store today.
I was supposed to go to dinner with my parents tonight for my birthday. I called my mom this morning and explained that I would much rather have dinner with them next week. I need to work out tonight. I got home too late from the office last night because of my dentist appointment. So I will be having dinner with them next Friday night, with Girl Clean.
I have next Friday off work, and I will have Girl Clean. I'm throwing around different ideas in my head of what to do. When it's just her with me she can sit with me while I have lunch with a friend, she can shop with me. I don't have to do kid specific stuff with her as long as we're going and doing and staying active. I genuinely like having her with me.
I'm hoping traffic when I leave work won't be too horrible. Fingers crossed!!!
Happy Thursday!!!
Dumb tears, reading about the panther who wrote the letter in the Charlotte paper about how we're going to win the Superbowl. Not that it's not a fantastic gesture, but tears are not acceptable.
This is all my opinion and since it's me, I'm entitled to this. For years I went without crying over stuff. I was able to stuff all my emotions and it wasn't healthy but that's where I was.
Sometimes tears are necessary.
It has hit me at odd moments that my Grandmommy is no longer here. I haven't deleted her number out of my phone. I found a valentine's card from here yesterday. I am blessed that she was such a part of my life for so long!!
Yesterday I left work to go to the dentist. The tooth that had all the issues has been hanging out ever since. It now has a crack and we're going to maybe try to see if a temporary crown will be covered by insurance and see if that helps. Now I'm totally freaked about chewing on that side, because what if I crack it.
My check engine light came on on my way home from Boone Tuesday. I have to go today and have them read whatever it is. Then I'll have to go back on Saturday morning to have them fix whatever it is. Please don't let this be terribly expensive!!!
My birthday present from Mr. Clean is new back brakes. I'll be having that done on Saturday along with an oil change. I hate dealing with car stuff. Spending money on real life grown up stuff is such a drag!!!
I need to register for my 10K, the price goes up after tomorrow.
I love my husband I truly do. I know that I married the right man for me. Every relationship is different and truly can't be compared. I remind myself of this because while I get the sweet stuff I also put up with not so lovely stuff.
He did give me a visa gift card that he received, well 2 actually. One to use for me, one to use to buy clothes for Girl Clean. I scored a pair of Crazy 8 jeans, 3 Children's place tops, 1 jacket and an Old Navy dress for $33 at the consignment store today.
I was supposed to go to dinner with my parents tonight for my birthday. I called my mom this morning and explained that I would much rather have dinner with them next week. I need to work out tonight. I got home too late from the office last night because of my dentist appointment. So I will be having dinner with them next Friday night, with Girl Clean.
I have next Friday off work, and I will have Girl Clean. I'm throwing around different ideas in my head of what to do. When it's just her with me she can sit with me while I have lunch with a friend, she can shop with me. I don't have to do kid specific stuff with her as long as we're going and doing and staying active. I genuinely like having her with me.
I'm hoping traffic when I leave work won't be too horrible. Fingers crossed!!!
Happy Thursday!!!
Wednesday, August 22, 2012
Birthday 2012
Monday evening I arrived home and knew that dinner prep was on me. Mr. Clean was mowing the lawn. I am incredibly thankful for the rain we have had. Said rain has kept Mr. Clean from mowing the lawn and it was starting to be a little scary to walk in. Especially considering the swarms of mosquitoes that come up when you put one foot into the grass. I'm being especially careful regarding Jack's heart worm meds. Mosquitoes are what cause heart worms in dogs and they swarm my dog whenever he goes to do his business.
I stopped at the store to pick up a few things. I decided that I would grab some noodles to add to the bag mix of noodles and vegetables I was making. We had determined we would have chicken stir fry (kind of) for dinner. I thought these would add something to it. I got home and my husband tells me that the mix already has noodles and doesn't need anything extra. I agree and send him back outside to finish up the yard.
I started the chicken in the skillet and the noodles that I bought in the microwave. Then once those noodles were finished I cooked the stir fry mix in the microwave. I finished up the chicken and cut it into chunks. I mixed the noodles with the stir fry noodle mix and it was too "noodly" so I checked our freezer. We had a steamer bag of Asian style veggies. I cooked those and added them to the mix. Dinner turned out great! I made sure that I buried the bags of extra noodles and veggies in the trash.
Mr. Clean finished up, showered, and had his dinner. We were sitting talking and he says, see that mix didn't need the extra that you were going to add to it. Followed by some kind of commentary that I didn't listen to because I was quietly gloating. He had no clue just how much I had doctored it all. I was happy with dinner and contributed for the evening. That's what matters to me, and honestly he liked dinner and didn't have to cook so he was happy too.
Tuesday I allowed myself to sleep in a little. I took Jack for a 3 mile run, which was awesome. I had originally planned to be on the road to Boone by 8:30. I got caught on FB so I didn't actually leave until 9. It worked out, I was walking into Donna's store at 11. She and I were able to catch up. One of her girls was coming in at 1 so when she arrived we were able to slip out for lunch.
She took me to lunch in a restaurant that is located in what was once a Frat house. I told her the last time I was there it was very dark, there was very loud music, and coolers of beer on the front porch. The food was fantastic! I really enjoyed the experience!
I hugged Donna bye and headed back down the mountain. I arrived home and we decided to go out for dinner. The place I wanted to go had closed so I chose a little Greek place instead. I thoroughly enjoyed it!
My husband told me happy birthday on Monday night, he told me Happy Birthday at 1:30 on my actual birthday and he said it when I woke up. Granted he had been reminded of the upcoming day, both Saturday and Sunday. However, he had said that he really didn't want to screw this up. I am appreciative.
He gave me beautiful cards, and absolutely made the effort to make the day special. I'm thankful!
I was "that annoying" FB friend yesterday. There was a point to it. I've mentioned that I have an individual in my life who I once counted a closest friend. I no longer do. It started long before I met my husband. My marriage was not "approved" of. Then because I refused to give up on it, that wasn't approved of either. The only contact this person still has with me is through FB. So not knowing who this person has told what to, and none of the information could be accurate because they don't have any information I felt the best way to disprove any rumors or untruth's was to use my FB. Juvenile, yes. However, I want to give credit where credit is due. The fact that yesterday went down the way it did is quite honestly a testament to all that God has done over the last year.
I am thankful for the amazing day! I am thankful for wonderful family and friends! I am so excited for this year and what it holds!
I stopped at the store to pick up a few things. I decided that I would grab some noodles to add to the bag mix of noodles and vegetables I was making. We had determined we would have chicken stir fry (kind of) for dinner. I thought these would add something to it. I got home and my husband tells me that the mix already has noodles and doesn't need anything extra. I agree and send him back outside to finish up the yard.
I started the chicken in the skillet and the noodles that I bought in the microwave. Then once those noodles were finished I cooked the stir fry mix in the microwave. I finished up the chicken and cut it into chunks. I mixed the noodles with the stir fry noodle mix and it was too "noodly" so I checked our freezer. We had a steamer bag of Asian style veggies. I cooked those and added them to the mix. Dinner turned out great! I made sure that I buried the bags of extra noodles and veggies in the trash.
Mr. Clean finished up, showered, and had his dinner. We were sitting talking and he says, see that mix didn't need the extra that you were going to add to it. Followed by some kind of commentary that I didn't listen to because I was quietly gloating. He had no clue just how much I had doctored it all. I was happy with dinner and contributed for the evening. That's what matters to me, and honestly he liked dinner and didn't have to cook so he was happy too.
Tuesday I allowed myself to sleep in a little. I took Jack for a 3 mile run, which was awesome. I had originally planned to be on the road to Boone by 8:30. I got caught on FB so I didn't actually leave until 9. It worked out, I was walking into Donna's store at 11. She and I were able to catch up. One of her girls was coming in at 1 so when she arrived we were able to slip out for lunch.
She took me to lunch in a restaurant that is located in what was once a Frat house. I told her the last time I was there it was very dark, there was very loud music, and coolers of beer on the front porch. The food was fantastic! I really enjoyed the experience!
I hugged Donna bye and headed back down the mountain. I arrived home and we decided to go out for dinner. The place I wanted to go had closed so I chose a little Greek place instead. I thoroughly enjoyed it!
My husband told me happy birthday on Monday night, he told me Happy Birthday at 1:30 on my actual birthday and he said it when I woke up. Granted he had been reminded of the upcoming day, both Saturday and Sunday. However, he had said that he really didn't want to screw this up. I am appreciative.
He gave me beautiful cards, and absolutely made the effort to make the day special. I'm thankful!
I was "that annoying" FB friend yesterday. There was a point to it. I've mentioned that I have an individual in my life who I once counted a closest friend. I no longer do. It started long before I met my husband. My marriage was not "approved" of. Then because I refused to give up on it, that wasn't approved of either. The only contact this person still has with me is through FB. So not knowing who this person has told what to, and none of the information could be accurate because they don't have any information I felt the best way to disprove any rumors or untruth's was to use my FB. Juvenile, yes. However, I want to give credit where credit is due. The fact that yesterday went down the way it did is quite honestly a testament to all that God has done over the last year.
I am thankful for the amazing day! I am thankful for wonderful family and friends! I am so excited for this year and what it holds!
Monday, August 20, 2012
5 Minutes
Friday night I got home and took Jack for a walk. Followed by dinner. Girl Clean was with her mom and I agreed to pick her up at 10 Saturday morning.
Saturday morning I was at the gym at 10 minute to 8. It opens at 8. At 8:10 the guy finally arrived. I was a little frustrated. I needed to get started at 8 to make the most of my gym time. I knew I had to be home by 9 in order to shower and leave by 9:30.
I was home at 9, and out the door by 9:30. I picked up the girl and drove home. She played with her Dad while I finished getting ready. We left at 11:30 to meet my friend Nicole, her boyfriend and his 2 girls for lunch. I satisfied my never ending Mexican craving. Mr. Clean doesn't like Mexican so it's usually what I will request when going out to eat with a girlfriend. Since all the kids love Mexican I knew it was a safe choice for lunch for Saturday.
We ran errands after lunch and then had church Saturday night. Girl Clean and I hung out after church while her Dad ran to the store. I fed her and bathed her and then dried her hair. Her hair is so long that it tangles up at night. I usually braid it but she was going to her Grandparent's church on Sunday and I didn't want to do braids for the outfit I had in my head.
Years ago I used to occasionally roll my hair with socks. Significantly less painful then foam rollers it works not quite as well but I wondered if it might do OK with her hair. I rolled her hair before bed.
Sunday morning I was up early. My plan was a 5 or 6 mile run depending on how I felt. It was raining and I was hooked into a book on my Kindle. I got a free book on Friday night that I enjoyed so much I bought (and finished) the next 2 on Saturday and Sunday. Ruth Cardello is the name of the author, they are light, cheesy, easy read romance novels and I was hooked!!!
Girl Clean woke up at 9. We took the socks out of her hair and sure enough the socks worked great!! I was thrilled with the result and so was she! I fed her breakfast and got her dressed. Her mom picked her up and Mr. Clean and I discussed our plans for the rest of the day.
He had errands to run. I was planning to go to the gym at 12 when it opened. I finished up my book and headed out. I was able to run 6 on the treadmill. I am thankful for the personal TV's, Food Network and HGTV!!!
Dinner with Bean and Jelly was at 5. We met them at a place in Salisbury. I had gone online and really liked the menu so we were excited to try it. I think Bean and Jelly liked their food. I definitely liked my pasta. Mr. Clean did not like his at all but I was incredibly thankful that he didn't mention it. While I am not opposed to sending something back if it's not done right, I am opposed to making everyone else uncomfortable just because the food you ordered doesn't meet your idea of what you were expecting.
He bit his tongue every time the waitress asked how we were doing. To me this is huge progress!!! Bean and Jelly picked up the tab for dinner. We were not quite ready for the night to end so they agreed to walk over to Krispy Kreme where the hot and now sign had come on. We treated to the donuts and sat and talked for a while longer.
I am so thankful the weekend was so nice!!! Happy Monday!!!
Saturday morning I was at the gym at 10 minute to 8. It opens at 8. At 8:10 the guy finally arrived. I was a little frustrated. I needed to get started at 8 to make the most of my gym time. I knew I had to be home by 9 in order to shower and leave by 9:30.
I was home at 9, and out the door by 9:30. I picked up the girl and drove home. She played with her Dad while I finished getting ready. We left at 11:30 to meet my friend Nicole, her boyfriend and his 2 girls for lunch. I satisfied my never ending Mexican craving. Mr. Clean doesn't like Mexican so it's usually what I will request when going out to eat with a girlfriend. Since all the kids love Mexican I knew it was a safe choice for lunch for Saturday.
We ran errands after lunch and then had church Saturday night. Girl Clean and I hung out after church while her Dad ran to the store. I fed her and bathed her and then dried her hair. Her hair is so long that it tangles up at night. I usually braid it but she was going to her Grandparent's church on Sunday and I didn't want to do braids for the outfit I had in my head.
Years ago I used to occasionally roll my hair with socks. Significantly less painful then foam rollers it works not quite as well but I wondered if it might do OK with her hair. I rolled her hair before bed.
Sunday morning I was up early. My plan was a 5 or 6 mile run depending on how I felt. It was raining and I was hooked into a book on my Kindle. I got a free book on Friday night that I enjoyed so much I bought (and finished) the next 2 on Saturday and Sunday. Ruth Cardello is the name of the author, they are light, cheesy, easy read romance novels and I was hooked!!!
Girl Clean woke up at 9. We took the socks out of her hair and sure enough the socks worked great!! I was thrilled with the result and so was she! I fed her breakfast and got her dressed. Her mom picked her up and Mr. Clean and I discussed our plans for the rest of the day.
He had errands to run. I was planning to go to the gym at 12 when it opened. I finished up my book and headed out. I was able to run 6 on the treadmill. I am thankful for the personal TV's, Food Network and HGTV!!!
Dinner with Bean and Jelly was at 5. We met them at a place in Salisbury. I had gone online and really liked the menu so we were excited to try it. I think Bean and Jelly liked their food. I definitely liked my pasta. Mr. Clean did not like his at all but I was incredibly thankful that he didn't mention it. While I am not opposed to sending something back if it's not done right, I am opposed to making everyone else uncomfortable just because the food you ordered doesn't meet your idea of what you were expecting.
He bit his tongue every time the waitress asked how we were doing. To me this is huge progress!!! Bean and Jelly picked up the tab for dinner. We were not quite ready for the night to end so they agreed to walk over to Krispy Kreme where the hot and now sign had come on. We treated to the donuts and sat and talked for a while longer.
I am so thankful the weekend was so nice!!! Happy Monday!!!
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