He has called you

Last year when I entered the final days before I filed I posted a list of verses because I was SO READY for everything to just be final!

There is a scene in the movie War Room where Elizabeth and Danielle are going to visit Mrs. Clara and when they get there Mrs. Clara already knows the news Elizabeth has to tell her. Elizabeth says, "now that's the kind of connection to God that I need"! Danielle had actually texted Mrs. Clara the information because she was so excited but that is exactly how I'm feeling right about now. I would like to be able to just know more details. I would like to have that kind of connection so I can plan accordingly.

The beginning of 2016 is not at all how I thought it was going to look. I've been learning how to let go of thinking that I need to have all the answers. I'm focusing on all that I have to be thankful for! I also prayed this morning about what am I supposed to be doing? The following verses were given to me.

“He has told you, O man, what is good, and what does the Lord require of you but to do justice and to love kindness and to walk humbly with your God?” Micah 6:8

“Seek good, and not evil, that you may live; and so that the Lord, the God of hosts, will be with you, as you have said.” Amos 5:14

“But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. “Therefor do not be anxious about tomorrow for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.’” Matthew 6:33-34

“But they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.” Isaiah 40:31

“And he said to him, “You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. This is the great and first commandment. And a second is like it: You shall love your neighbor as yourself.”  Matthew 6:37-38

“You shall love the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your might. And these words that I command you today shall be on your heart.” Deuteronomy 6:5-6

“Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.” Philippians 4:8

“I believe that I shall look upon the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living! Wait for the Lord; be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the Lord.” Psalm 27:13-14

“I wait for the Lord, my soul waits, and in His word I hope” Psalm 130:5

“Our soul waits for the Lord; He is our help and our shield. For our heart is glad in Him, because we trust in His holy name. Let your steadfast love, O Lord, be upon us, even as we hope in you.” Psalm 33:20-22

“Love the Lord, all you his saints! The Lord preserves the faithful but abundantly repays the one who acts in pride. Be strong, and let your heart take courage, all you who wait for the Lord!” Psalm 31:23-24

“And now, O Lord, for what do I wait? My hope is in you.” Psalm 39:7

“But this I call to mind, and therefore I have hope: the steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; His mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. The Lord is my portion, says my soul, therefore I will hope in Him. The Lord is good to those who wait for Him, to the soul who seeks Him. The Lord is good to those who wait for him, to the soul who seeks Him.” Lamentations 3:21-25

“But as for me, I will look to the Lord; I will wait for the God of my salvation; my God will hear me.” Micah 7:7

I've realized that He's already told me what my purpose is, to love Him, to serve Him and to be His hands and feet. I worship, and move forward and know that His timing and His ways are never mine. I've tried forcing solutions and I know that the solutions I arrive at are never a blessing but when I wait on the Lord and on His timing I am always blessed. 

I didn't expect to want to get married again, until He healed my heart and allowed me to feel again. I didn't expect to have 3 different opportunities to meet new guys last year and God, in His own way, in His own time, brought 3 different guys into my life and then in His time took them out of my life. I know that with the first guy seeds were planted, with the 2nd guy I think that was more for my benefit t understand that certain character traits that I said don't exist, actually do. I still think God was laughing on that night of the first date with him when I about fell out of my chair. With the last one I know that I had an impact and I wouldn't trade that. I made a difference and I was an encouragement and for that I'm thankful.

My friends are going online and using apps and there are so many different ways to meet people and yet I know that for me I am not to go about it that way. At least not yet. If God brought the first 3 then I know He will bring someone else, in His time in His way. Of course... I would prefer that I not hurt so much over the next one as I did the last one! Even in that I will trust Him!

As I go into the weekend I'm looking forward to boot camp tonight and a long run tomorrow. I will continue to live my life to the fullest and trust the details to the One writing my story!