As I'm sitting here watching the movie I'm struck by the plot in a new way. "I can't believe it happened" Carrie in the drug store as she is talking to Miranda and sees the Vogue issue. As I watch this single, again, I just am struck by her emotion. Immediately after the wedding that never happened all she can do is sleep and that is all I could do last year. The kind of sadness that comes when a significant relationship ends can only be felt by truly experiencing it. I'll never forget driving home from a bobcats game and silently sobbing. Shortly after I finally went to therapy. The past year has been about figuring out who I am, figuring out where I went wrong, and learning that while it hurts I still can't give up on love.
One of my favorite scriptures if 1 Corinthians 13. The other is Jeremiah 29:11-13. I have finally learned that I have to seek the Lord's plan for me in order to truly be happy. I also have realized that if I do have someone in my life they must love the Lord with all their heart, mind, soul and strength because that is the most important thing. In life we have to put Him first in order to understand where we are supposed to go.
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