Aahhh FB

I used to have an all love mentality towards this social media giant. I was reconnected with friends. I received endless entertainment while at work.

I accepted the current position and FB became something I could only visit in the afternoons. I still loved it but I just didn't have the time for it like I used to.

I still appreciate the way that it connects me to friends and family. I have found friends who I had lost touch with, and I am thankful. I only accept friend requests from people I know. I have my privacy settings set as best I know how.

I don't like the constant changes because it makes it difficult for me to navigate. I hope that I have the privacy settings all set correctly.

I have been more sporadic over the past year for personal reasons. I find myself on more now then in the past year and a half.

I shared a post that my brother and sister in law posted, the big news has finally been revealed!!! I'm going to be an aunt again, and I am so excited!!!

Here's the deal though, I have 2 nieces, I have 3 nephews. My 2 nieces are Daron's sister's girls. Margs' 2 boys and Patrice's little boy, I already consider nephews. So while I am beyond thrilled for my brother and SIL. I cried, and squealed with glee when I got the call, I also realize it's not my first little nephew although it is my first biological (if that's even the correct term).

I had to sit on the news from September until now. For very good reason, and I respected the wishes of Brian and Jenny, I love them to pieces and totally understood why. I will say that it was ridiculously hard to keep my mouth shut while in Florida snuggling baby L!!!

I also had a comment from someone I used to work with saying how wonderful and up next motherhood. OK there is no good way to respond to that one without coming across badly. Knowing the source of the comment I understand that she was excited and that just sounded good. However, I am a mom. I only plan to have one little girl, and she is with us every weekend.

The other week we noticed that Audra called me mom a few times and I kept just saying Lori, because to me it's always been Amy is Mommy and I'm Lori. Daron brought it up when he took her back last week and Amy explained that she and Audra had been talking about Mary being baby Jesus' mother and that it had come up that Audra has two mommy's. Amy said that because of how much she appreciates me it's ok with her if Audra does call me Mom.

So after that, especially, that comment, innocuous as it is, is just bothering me.

In my Mom's Christmas letter, she wrote out that Brian and Jenny are expecting their first baby, because it's their news and she understands that. See Audra already calls my mom Grandma. Because last year I asked her what she wanted to call my parent's and she said Grandma Gail and Granpa Del. The other day she saw movies we had borrowed from my Mom and said oh we need to take those back to Grandma's house. Of course I called my Mom as soon as I could.

Brian and Jenny's little one is a huge blessing and highly anticipated, we are all just beyond thrilled just like we all felt when they got married. This is amazing and wonderful, and fantastic. I don't take anything away from the joy and expectation we are feeling.

I just had to write all this out because while on FB it wouldn't come across well it's my blog and on here I can write it all out to let it go.