No Voice

My friends who have known me for any length of time know that I lose my voice on a fairly regular basis. I have been to a specialist and there is really no specific reason. I personally feel it has something to do with the mono I suffered in college and probably some other factors as well.
When I went back to work at a restaurant the word I was given when I was praying about how I was going to go back and deal with the voice loss was "The joy of the Lord is your strength". I've lost sight of that over the past few months as I've been caught up in the stresses of everyday life. I worked last night and this morning I woke up, with no voice, again. This is becoming a regular occurrence in my life. I went to church and the first few songs were wonderful worship songs and I could not participate in singing them other than following along with the words in my head. Then we repeated a Psalm and again I could only follow along silently. The next song began and I began to pray. I was talking to the Lord and acknowledging that the joy of the Lord is my strength and this voice loss is robbing me of living life to the fullest. I just began to pray that I would get my voice back. As I was standing praying I had a heat come over my throat and my voice came back.
I've definitely been a little down this week. I've been contemplating the fact that I'm going into the year 2009 single, with no prospects and I keep reminding myself that I want God to use me as He desires. I feel I am to hold onto the promises that I've been given but I'm not entirely sure what those promises are. I know I have Jeremiah 29:13 "You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart." I know Romans 8:28 "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him,who have been called according to his purpose." Christmas I just had to keep praying and holding on to these promises. I read a book Battlefield of the Mind by Joyce Meyer, it was excellent and I'm really trying to grasp all the principles in the book. As I read and pray and seek after the Lord I know I'm to be joyful always pray continually and give thanks for all that the Lord has done in my life. Really my life is not my own, I was bought with a price and my purpose is to serve Him and seek after His will for me.
Today was just a reminder that He desires that I live life to the fullest, He came that we might have life and have it abundantly and part of that includes me keeping my voice so I can give Him praise and worship :)