Saying Goodbye

I wrote yesterdays post and I mentioned I had song lyrics rolling through my head. Apparently there was a reason.

My Grandmommy has always been a huge influence in my life. We said goodbye to my Grandaddy in 2008 and Grandmommy continued to live at the farm for a few more years.

November 2010 we got her all settled into her own space. She loved her apartment and her freedom and she made friends. That Christmas we hung out at my parents and had stockings and made memories.

Grandmommy made the several hour trip for Bean and Jelly's wedding. What an amazing special weekend that was. She glowed as she watched my brother marry the girl of his dreams. She looks healthy and happy in all the pictures.

That summer she spent a week at the lake house and I took a few days from work to spend time with her and my mom.

I'm not sure when she started fading so fast but it was last year when she started to seem so much more frail. My wedding she was there, and I'm so glad that she was able to be there to watch me get married.

Right before Christmas she walked into a wall and bruised her face badly. She no longer enjoyed having a space all her own. She preferred having someone with her on a regular basis. We had another Christmas where we made memories.

A few weeks ago we relocated my Grandmommy from where she was to a new space where she still has her own space, but she also has people on hand 24/7 if she needs them.

I received an email from my mom this morning that when they went to wake her up this morning they couldn't. Currently she is in the hospital with tests being run.

I'm not sure what will happen. I know that she hates being old. I know that she misses my Grandaddy. I know that she has been ready for a while to say goodbye. It's possible she bounces back and stays for a few more weeks, months, or years, it's certainly possible.

While I don't want to say goodbye, I also know that it's not forever. These particular words of the lyrics of the song continue to roll through my mind. "Through time you’ve been a friend to me But time is now the enemy, I wish we didn’t have to say goodbye...."