Adjustment… I think this is the word that best describes life right now. Waking up at 5 to leave the house by 6:30 making sure Jack gets time outside the crate before he has to go in the crate again. He has a sleep crate, which is the crate I brought him home in. Then during the day he has a bigger crate that is a souvenir from one of the exes from last year.
I realized last night how many shoes I let go of, and I almost cried. Shallow, maybe, but it's true. My clothes all fit, I couldn't begin to guess how much clothing I've either sold, given away, or donated. I was looking at what's left and again I almost cried. I get that I should not begrudge, I get that I’m blessed, but today I'm feeling sorry for myself.
My commute to work is now an hour. I love my job so I will deal with this. It's just an adjustment time. This morning I had a note on the mirror that said I love you. That helps. I'm definitely overly tired, I have to adjust to my new time schedule.
I have to change my license, my insurance agents license, this list goes on and on and I'm not sure how to do it all and I don't have time during the day before stuff closes, lovely.
I sound ungrateful and more then anything I'm just venting. I know that it will all work out, I know that eventually I'll get used to my new normal. Maybe someday I won't be quite so upset that I lost my clothes and shoes collection. I think I will use this as my excuse to start buying really really good jeans!!!
I tried to run last night but I was exhausted and I forgot my phone. I don't like to run without my phone so I ended up just taking Jack for a walk. We'll run tonight. I had better, if I want my clothes to fit.
Have a fabulous Thursday!!!! Tomorrow is FRIDAY!!!!!
2 comments:
You have every right to vent! It's a huge adjustment for you. Things will get easier. I promise. :-)
I totally understand that you are adjusting to alot right now. My friend Nora is going through the same thing as she moved from St Louis to Wisconsin. And while it's FANTASTIC to be with the man you love, it's not like it's the easy button of life. I am glad Mr. Clean does sweet things like leave that post it note. I am sure he is aware of the sacrifices you are making right now! It's alot to process/get used to! It's ok to cry over giving up shoes/clothes!!
Thinking of you!
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